Sometimes I Just Feel Like . . .

Many times when i begin some type of journal I'm not sure what i might have written down in a months time. But in recent years I have found that usually when i write, something is bothering me. And what I write always seems kind of depressing. I hate it. Why would any of you want to read any thing i have to say if its only going to be complaints. *SIGH So I'm gonna try my hardest not to sit here and type some sad story to make you pity me or take my side. But I'm just letting you know its kind of in my nature to write this way. . . Sometimes i just feel like on the inside I'm like one of those stereotypical goth kids in all black and depressed and hating the world. Which I'm not, but i guess i just write that way. OH, and please PLEASE forgive me if i ever seem blunt or crewel it's also in my nature to say exactly how i feel when i feel it. I hate lying and so if somethings on my mind i say it.