I feel like i'm in a movie

Lately i feel like my life has been totally scripted. Either like some family show or teen drama. Or even like some bad TV movie. All the peaces of the puzzle fit its like the audience the whole time has been screaming at me through the screen telling me "HELLOOO DONT YOU SEE WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NEXT!!!!" , but through all the buzzing of the wires and the bright lights i hear nothing. And actually it's not just been lately there have been other points in my life where I've felt, why didn't i see that? This whole think with my FAAaAaaaATHER has been so draining on me and i haven't really been able to talk about it with any one (besides Michelle) but Debora's been . . .busy i guess *shrug, and well, Ian's been nonexistent. So its just been me and my mind like in the Evanescence song Hello
"hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
hello,
if i smile and don't believe
soon i know I'll wake from this dream
don't try to fix me I'm not broken
hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
don't cry"
It used to be only an Iggy song (that's a story for another day) but now i find that my songs apply to all parts of my twisted life and there is a comfort in that. That through all this there is somee constant something i know wont change something i know will always be there