Isn't someone missing me?

"Even though I'm the sacrifice, You won't try for me, not now. Though I'd die to know you love me, I'm all alone. Isn't someone missing me?" Missing -Evanescence

DAMN MY IMPULSIVE POSTING ON FACE BOOK!

Last night after i finished writing about the ocean i stayed up for another HOUR i just couldn't get to sleep and i heard that song and word for word i herd the lyrics pulled from my scull.

"Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?-


And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,"

I guess i was thinking about that even as i slept. Mostly because when i woke up i began to realize who am i? I mean who am i really im just . . .human. Only human and being that only allows me to do so much. Lately i began to feel like i really have an impact on peoples life's when this morning i realized im just another empty seat.
I woke up only a few minutes late (didnt eat again . . .i dont have time for that these days) and drove to school. Someone took my early morning parking space and i realized life goes on with out people INCLUDING me. . .
again who am i? just a human what happens with out one person

"Without you, the ground thaws
the rain falls
the grass grows

Without you, the seeds root
the flowers bloom
the children play

The stars gleam
the poets dream
the eagles fly"

Would someone miss me? Yes i know they would, but Im no one special. Im another spot filled im another painter im another weird kid im the girl with the blue hair who was cool. Im not gonna change the world im not gonna save a life im just going to exist until my time is up. And how long could that be? I dont know most likely a LONG TIME but i just dont see how i can change any thing. Even though i know not all people are meant to change things its good to have some effect.
What if i had never meet certain friends?
one year back two years back SEVEN years back. Would i have made that much of a difference in their lives? Im not sure that i would have.
These are just thoughts i have no intention on doing any thing about it things always work out the way they are meant to. (I hate believing that but i have to other wise i dont understand why anything is the way it is)
"Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?

Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"